I took a break from knitting. For the entire summer.
I broke up from school with six weeks off ahead of me, an abundance of free and quiet knitting time. What did I do? I put my knitting in a basket in the furthest corner of the spare room, turned my back on it and, with a cocktail of emotion fizzing in my chest, shut the door behind me. A shot of guilt, a twist of confusion, an aftertaste of uncertain relief. Shaken. On the rocks.
Every now and then I went back to it, picked it up, whispered my feverish apologies, carried it about a bit, even took it on two holidays. It sat in the bottom of my suitcase, forgotten, like a comfort blanket you no longer need but take everywhere with you out of habit. Occasionally, I did actually knit a couple of rows but my heart just wasn't in it. My heart was decidedly elsewhere.
At first it was pretty unpleasant, I love knitting, it's what I do, it's the only thing I can do well. What am I going to do if I don't knit? I'll just bumble along being mediocre at everything.
After a while I realised I wasn't convinced. This was not a departure, this was merely my motivation having a good old sulk. And why not? I have been pushing and pushing, laying down unrealistic deadlines, forcing myself to knit and re-knit the same pattern over and over, throwing every tick of the clock I have spare into knitting, every single last penny and none of it out of love. All of it because of the unnecessary pressure I have layered and layered over my hobby, my hobby!.
I sucked out all of the joy. I turned it into a chore. I hit a wall. I pushed and pushed until my needles, sparking from the sharp ends, stuck themselves hard into the ground and screamed "ENOUGH! Just sod off will you?"
Fair enough, I thought and sod off I did.
I went to Galway in Southern Ireland with the family, some friends and The Gentle Giant. We ran down the cobbled streets with handkerchiefs tied on sticks yelling "We surrender!" It was a Medieval tour, I hadn't completely lost it. We saw some fantastic live music, acrobatics that made me feel shamefully lazy, boat tripped, ate ourselves silly and played a lot of Uno in many an Irish pub. Encountered rain so torrential it felt as though some great being had up turned the sea.
I read books with actual pages, I saw all of my friends, went to the cinema (twice!), failed my driving test and cried a lot. Consumed tapas and wine with my mum, who always knows what to do, and felt much better.
I went to Greece with The Gentle Giant and met up with his family. Sunbathed, swam, shopped, explored islands, played a lot of Uno and ate ourselves silly.
I went to End of the Road Festival. I danced, I drank, I laughed a huge amount.
I am now browner and rounder and probably a lot nicer.
And I am ready to pull my needles from the earth, dust them off and knit. When I want to, what I want to. Otherwise, is there really any point at all?
shijun 4.20 2
ReplyDeletemichael kors
louis vuitton purses
true religion outlet
hollister kids
gucci outlet
michael kors handbags
coach outlet online
true religion sale
christian louboutin outlet
ralph lauren outlet
burberry handbags
louis vuitton handbags
jordan 11
michael kors outlet online
michael kors canada
cheap oakley sunglasses
louis vuitton
michael kors
louis vuitton
timberland outlet
chanel bags
ray bans
christian louboutin shoes
coach outlet online
celine outlet online
gucci bags
michael kors outlet
ralph lauren uk
michael kors outlet
running warehouse
coach factory outlet online
jordan shoes
abercrombie fitch
coach outlet online
louis vuitton handbags
hollister outlet
mulberry bags
burberry handbags
abercrombie & fitch
toms outlet
oakley sunglasses, michael kors outlet, tory burch outlet, christian louboutin, christian louboutin uk, longchamp outlet, prada outlet, michael kors outlet store, longchamp outlet, polo ralph lauren outlet online, tiffany and co, ray ban sunglasses, replica watches, coach outlet, oakley sunglasses wholesale, nike air max, michael kors outlet, coach purses, oakley sunglasses, ray ban sunglasses, michael kors outlet online, coach outlet store online, christian louboutin shoes, kate spade, true religion outlet, burberry handbags, nike outlet, jordan shoes, polo outlet, coach outlet, nike air max, michael kors outlet online, chanel handbags, burberry outlet, tiffany jewelry, prada handbags, longchamp outlet, michael kors outlet online, gucci handbags, kate spade outlet, christian louboutin outlet, nike free
ReplyDeleteconverse pas cher, ray ban pas cher, north face, nike free run, sac vanessa bruno, burberry pas cher, sac hermes, nike air force, nike free uk, lululemon canada, new balance, north face uk, nike tn, guess pas cher, michael kors, nike air max uk, timberland pas cher, nike air max, true religion jeans, hollister uk, true religion outlet, nike roshe, ray ban uk, louboutin pas cher, longchamp pas cher, air max, hollister pas cher, ralph lauren uk, jordan pas cher, nike air max uk, polo ralph lauren, michael kors pas cher, hogan outlet, sac longchamp pas cher, true religion outlet, polo lacoste, abercrombie and fitch uk, vans pas cher, michael kors outlet, nike blazer pas cher, mulberry uk, oakley pas cher
ReplyDeleteceline handbags, iphone 6 cases, mcm handbags, reebok outlet, insanity workout, longchamp uk, timberland boots, hermes belt, hollister clothing, beats by dre, oakley, nike roshe run uk, giuseppe zanotti outlet, north face outlet, soccer shoes, nike roshe run, mac cosmetics, soccer jerseys, ghd hair, ferragamo shoes, vans outlet, nike trainers uk, nike huaraches, herve leger, abercrombie and fitch, p90x workout, babyliss, mont blanc pens, asics running shoes, instyler, hollister, new balance shoes, baseball bats, lululemon, wedding dresses, chi flat iron, valentino shoes, nfl jerseys, bottega veneta, nike air max, jimmy choo outlet, north face outlet
ReplyDeletetoms shoes, pandora jewelry, ugg,ugg australia,ugg italia, louboutin, ugg boots, supra shoes, ray ban, swarovski, juicy couture outlet, vans, uggs on sale, converse, ugg,uggs,uggs canada, juicy couture outlet, thomas sabo, lancel, karen millen uk, nike air max, hollister, uggs outlet, ugg boots, uggs outlet, hollister, replica watches, ugg pas cher, gucci, swarovski crystal, ralph lauren, wedding dresses, ugg, converse outlet, pandora charms, ugg uk, pandora uk, marc jacobs, coach outlet, links of london, montre pas cher
ReplyDelete15921meiqing
ReplyDeletegucci outlet
moncler outlet
true religion outlet
juicy couture
abercrombie
nike running shoes
ralph lauren uk
north face
prada
true religion jeans
burberry outlet
jordan shoes
football shoes
ralph lauren outlet
ed hardy outlet
moncler jackets
louis vuitton handbags
ugg sale
ray ban sunglasses outlet
air max
coach factory outlet
marc jacobs
adidas original trainers
air max 95
cheap oakley sunglasses
nike blazer
longchamp outlet
adidas superstars
nike air huarache
nike huarache
TEN
ReplyDelete0317
ralph lauren outlet
oakley sunglasses
swarovski crystal
coach outlet online
tiffany and co
ralph lauren uk
coach outlet
ferragamo shoes
cheap oakley sunglasses
phone cases
burberry outlet store
michael kors handbags
bottega veneta outlet online
kate spade uk
ralph lauren uk
cheap oakley sunglasses
omega watches
tory burch outlet online
lululemon pants
celine outlet online
replica watches
oakley sunglasses
mulberry handbags
montblanc pens
fitflops uk
ralph lauren uk
fitflops uk
swarovski jewelry
longchamp handbags
oakley sunglasses wholesale
chenlina20160718
ReplyDeletejordan concords
adidas originals
nfl jerseys wholesale
gucci handbags
ray ban sunglasses
michael kors handbags
air max 90
tory burch handbags
kobe bryant shoes
michael kors canada
coach outlet store online clearances
fitflops sale clearance
christian louboutin outlet
kobe 10
kate spade handbags
louboutin
nike huarache
coach outlet
coach outlet store online clearances
lebron shoes
gucci outlet
celine outlet
michael kors outlet
oakley sunglasses
cheap nfl jerseys
cheap air jordans
burberry outlet
ray ban sunglasses
polo ralph lauren
jordan 11 concord
oakley sunglasses
toms shoes
supra shoes
burberry outlet
jordan retro 3
michael kors outlet online sale
north face outlet
burberry bags
coach outlet
fitflop sandals
as
Here we present to introduce to all visitors in this great blog. and thank you for allowing me .
ReplyDeletecara menggugurkan kandungan
obat aborsi
tanda tanda kehamilan
nfl jerseys wholesale
ReplyDeleteralph lauren outlet
the north face
pandora uk
coach factory outlet
yeezy boost 350
coach outlet
cheap jordans
michael kors canada
michael kors outlet
20170119caiyan
tennessee titans jersey
ReplyDeletecheap michael kors handbags
lebron james shoes
michael kors outlet
nike store uk
cowboys jerseys
pittsburgh steelers jersey
philadelphia eagles jerseys
san diego chargers jerseys
ed hardy clothing
ralph lauren sale
ReplyDeletebirkenstock outlet
louis vuitton outlet store
adidas sneakers
jordan uk
michael kors outlet store
adidas sneakers
fitflop
pandora charms outlet
sac longchamp
170513yueqin
This is a very good article material and it is very useful for us all. thank you . cara menggugurkan kandungan
ReplyDeleteasics
ReplyDeleteralph lauren
hermes kelly bag
balenciaga sandals
kate spade handbags
balance shoes
ralph lauren
jordan 8
fitflops
ralph lauren uk
20185.21chenjinyan
cheap basketball shoes
ReplyDeletedansko shoes
bcbg max azria
jordan 12
bijoux swarovski
mercurial superfly
argentina world cup jersey
herve leger dresses
converse
michael jordan
2018.6.1xukaimin
soccer jerseys
ReplyDeletelululemon
bulgari jewelry
lebron 15
air more uptempo
kobe 11
the hundreds clothing
guess handbags
jordan 6
freshjive clothing
chenlina20180602
calvin klein outlet online
ReplyDeletenike flyknit racer
lacoste outlet
retro jordans
vans shoes
nike huarache
goyard handbags
retro jordans
yeezy shoes
tom ford eyewear
I really enjoyed your blog Thanks for sharing such an informative post.
ReplyDeleteclipping path
raster to vector
background removal
ghost mannequin
Thank you for sharing
ReplyDeleteشركة نقل اثاث من الرياض الى القصيم
شركة نقل اثاث من الرياض الى المدينة المنورة
ارخص شركة شحن من السعودية للكويت
شركة نقل عفش من الرياض الى البحرين
Typically they are probably the most formable grades and may work-harden to comparatively excessive energy. The primary alloying additions in 3XX collection stainless steels are Waterproof Shower Caps chromium and nickel. In the 2XX collection, some of the the} nickel is changed with manganese and nitrogen.
ReplyDelete